In the ordinary routine of domestic life, it's hard to believe how much drama my relationship with Jamie has caused. My passion for another man destroyed my marriage and caused severe unhappiness for Ladies seeking sex Murfreesboro Tennessee people - including my young children. I was 24 when I married Stephen.
We met at university, and were one of those couples who just drift into adult life together - looking back, we were both shy and found mutual support in being a couple. Our friends used to laugh about how cosy we were, while they were ricocheting through heartbreaking affairs.
I didn't want any of that. My parents had divorced when I am looking for some of my old flames was 11, and I craved stability.
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Stephen was kind, steady and faithful - I lookinng he adored me. He proposed in Paris on my 24th birthday, and we married six months later. I was working in TV, in a demanding junior role. Stephen had joined the graduate scheme of a big travel company, and his hours were traditional.
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He struggled to understand my long days or the culture of going for drinks after filming wrapped. But we still talked and laughed together, and we had started to think about having children.
I wasn't looking for anyone else, but it's when you get complacent that you're in the most danger. I started working on a new TV drama series.
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I was learning a huge amount, and was getting on very well with the assistant producer, Jamie, a dark-haired, blue-eyed year-old. Unlike Stephen, he was the opposite of steady.
He had no savings, he lived in a shared house with a Beautiful couple searching casual encounter Mount Pleasant South Carolina poet and a eome, and he rode a motorbike. He was also hilariously funny.
Some of the series was filmed on location, and the crew stayed in a hotel in Wiltshire for a few nights. In the evenings, a few of us would sit in the bar, but on the fourth night it was just me and Jamie. I felt a frisson that I'd never felt with Stephen - I wanted to impress him, I wanted this man to notice me.
As we talked and laughed, it was clear I wasn't inventing the spark between us. Nothing had happened, but I knew it could, and I felt unhinged with desire.
My relationship with Stephen seemed to exist on a I am looking for some of my old flames planet. It never occurred to me, bizarrely, that I could do anything to harm it. All the next day, I longed to be near Jamie. I was like a loking in love with the football captain. That evening, when he leaned in and said, "Do you fancy dinner somewhere? We went to a I am looking for some of my old flames candlelit country pub, and by the end of dinner we were holding hands.
My heart was racing so hard I thought I might collapse. Even then, I was telling myself it was just a flirtation, that I was 'getting it out Fuck girls New Orleans my system'.
I was oold 25, and I'd had two lovers in my entire life.
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That night made it three. The sex was utterly different from the loving, intimate times Stephen and I shared - it was pure passion. Stephen didn't suspect, and I was too besotted to feel guilty.
A few nights later, Jamie told me he was in love with me. I answered, truthfully, that I didn't know what to do, but I wanted to keep on seeing him. The late nights and weekends in TV work meant it was easy to keep things secret.
We never texted, we arranged everything in person - evenings in hotels, or at his odd, Bohemian house, lunchtimes spent frantically kissing. I didn't know how it would end, I just wanted the madness to go on. But if course, it didn't, for the most serious of reasons - I discovered I was pregnant. Jamie and I had been obsessively careful. But I'd come off the Pill, and Stephen and I hadn't been using anything, on the basis that it might take a while to get pregnant. Married couple seeking porno dating bbw stupid, romantic part of me was crushed I am looking for some of my old flames I wasn't carrying Jamie's child, which would have solved the dilemma for me, but I knew Stephen was far better equipped for fatherhood.
I had to tell Jamie it was over. He was devastated, and even offered to raise the baby with me, but I couldn't do that to Stephen. Jamie left the production, citing family reasons, and cut off all contact.
He did the right thing, but I ached with misery. I passed it off to Stephen as pregnancy blues - he was very supportive, and thrilled about the baby. After Adam was born, I suffered post-natal depression. When he was three months old, I cracked. I'd been crying all day, and when Stephen begged I am looking for some of my old flames to tell him what was wrong, I told him everything.
He was shocked and deeply hurt, but couldn't bear to leave us. In the end, I promised him I'd stick with him - he was a wonderful dad. Stephen told himself I'd needed a fling, because we were so young when we met; and over time, he gradually forgave me. We had another baby, Lyla, and I tried to put Jamie out of my mind.
I did dream about him sometimes, and when I Stephen and Beautiful older ladies wants real sex Jonesboro argued, I thought about what could have been, but I reminded myself that I couldn't risk our family.
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I went back to work part time, and Stephen was promoted. I sometimes heard news about Jamie on the grapevine - he was successful, wasn't married - but we hadn't seen each other in 14 years when I was booked to work on a new TV adaptation, and I saw his name on the list of crew.
The first day on set, I realised my feelings hadn't changed. He was older, greyer, but still made my heart pound.
He asked me for a drink, 'to catch up', and the attraction was sm a wrecking ball.Totally Free Maine Personal Ads
A week after starting the job, we kissed, and he said, "I can't lose you again". I asked myself how I could risk my marriage, our family, the life we had together for a rekindled fling.Local Girls Wanting Cock Me If This Is What You Crave
But I did. Jamie and I resumed our affair, I agonised about the children, sobbed over Stephen, went lod in endless circles - but it all came back to one fact. I loved Jamie, I always had, and I couldn't bear to live without him.
Telling Stephen was hell. He begged me to stay, he threatened to kill Jamie for 'ruining his life', he punched a wall next to my head.Ladies Want Real Sex Seaside Heights
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He did his best, but he wasn't their father, and Stephen, understandably, didn't make it easy. In one of the many, agonising conversations we had afterwards, Stephen told me he always suspected I'd never got over Jamie, but he didn't want to know the truth.
He felt I'd constantly yearned for him since Adam was born, and I suppose he was right. Four years on, Jamie and I are married and Stephen is seeing someone new. I am not proud of how I behaved, or the pain I caused - how could I be? All I know I am looking for some of my old flames that meeting Jamie again at 40 made it very clear that he is my soul mate.
Despite the difficulties, we are truly happy together. I just wish I'd met him earlier, and avoided so much pain and sorrow for everyone involved. I gambled my marriage on an old flame. Alex Portman This woman found out how much she had to sacrifice to be with her soulmate.
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